31 December 2009

The New Me

JL Santiago Aquino

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Here in the Philippines, most of us Filipinos thinks that being fair-skinned is beautiful and having a brown or darker skin makes one an inferior. Actually me too! I mostly bewildered over whiter skinned people over not so white ones. Sometimes I blame the media (Television, Print & Internet) for this discriminating norm of beauty.

I grew up with nothing or little confidence on myself because I really feel that I am just mediocre plus added the fact that i have a "Filipino" nose and a kayumanggi skin. You know what, sometimes I blame my parent for having this kind of nose. It's like a sore thumb that really stand out. Sometimes when people talk to me, I always think that they're looking at my nose & I end up nakayuko just to hide it :( Unbelievable but it's true, that's how small I see of myself.

I console myself to some good things that I inherited from my parents like my height and having a dimple on my right cheek. But it doesn't end there, the society's standard of  winsomeness  is not really on me. I grew up anti-social and I find the internet a haven for me. Since on the cyberspace, you don't have to see your friends & other people online, face to face just to talk to them.

Since I can't fix my nose for now & in the near future because of it's high cost and I'm really afraid of needles and all that stuff, I resort to other things just to hide my 'imperfections' like buying branded clothes if I have the money because I feel that wearing some branded clothes & accessories has some sort of psychological effect that makes you feel pogi at times.

I had to try skin lightening too. Believe me I tried every whitening product on the market just to fit in this so-called beauty standard on this cruel society. Placenta Soap, Sulfur Soap, Magic Soaps, Herbal Soaps, Papaya Soap, Kojic Soap, P*nds Whitening Cream & M*xipeel Exp*liant (which is a huge hit back then, you will see many people with icky peeling skin on their faces hehehe) name it, I tried it all, and of course these things are not free just imagine it's cost to me just being a student back then. I don't know why I'm such a fan of these products, maybe that's clear indication that I'm insecure to myself.

Some of it did work for me but there is some disadvantages like there is peeling on my face & there's a stingy sensation when that affected skin is touched by something. Or I can't stay long under the sun, because my skin is being treated. Well I just thought back then that 'beauty is pain' in order to get the looks that you want you must suffer a little.

I play hide & seek with the sun just to get the skin that I want, I don't go out with no reasons at all or if I do I bring my umbrella with me. You would just see me watching my friends when we go out in the beach, because I'm still waiting for the sun to come down so I can finally enjoy the inviting water with them.

All of my effort didn't come to waste when I was hired by Bench Clothing, it was so fulfilling to me because when i'm just a service crew at a fast food chain I would always envied those Bench staffs whenever I pass by to their store & always wished that I would be one soon. Luckily I become a sales crew for Bench Clothing in Robinson Manila.

People would always be surprised that I got in, because some says that the HR department of that company would always requires a good looks before they would hire someone. Being of one Bench staffs has developed my confidence too, I started to dress-up well, got my hair colored & my upper ear lobe pierced. I developed communicating skills to others too because in there, you are required to talk to other (to costumers for instance) These things created the NEW ME, the better me.

from a skinny wannabe I'm now feeling happy with my weight!

I can say that I'm not baduy in terms of mixing & matching outfits anymore. My complexion improved too.

If my pictures looks gloomy before, well not anymore. I think the hapiness come from within!

I can be a camwh*re now LOL

I discovered Glutamax because of my housemate who now live in Taguig. I tried it first on my face to test it's effectiveness & surprisingly it works on me. Without the peeling of my skin & the stingy feeling that product with Hydroquinone has.

Using Glutamax doesn’t mean that I abhorred me, being Filipino, I just want to feel good about myself and having a lighter skin is one of my moral booster to face other people with confidence.

GlutaMAX, See the Results

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JL Santiago Aquino / Author & Editor

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10 Reactions:

  1. Anonymous22:04


  2. Anonymous01:34

    you should love your own color dude.

  3. @Anonymous:

    I'm still brown naman eh :)

  4. Anonymous04:02

    is it effective? I'm planning to buy pero nung nakita ko yung prize nagdalawang isip pa ko. Pero kung effective naman why not? ...

  5. Anonymous04:03

    anyway i saw this website on the GlutaMax Lightening page on Facebook that's why I am here...

  6. yup it's effective tsaka hindi harsh ung ingredients unlike other soap na mapepeel-off ung skin mo. Okay naman yung presyo, kase matagal naman matunaw :)

  7. Anonymous01:13


  8. Anonymous12:46

    dude effective ba ung soap? ilng weeks bago mo nkita ung results nya? mgkano ung soap and sa pede mka avail n2? mkkuta ba sya sa mga drugstore? thnx!

  9. Anonymous02:01

    congrats on the new you!

  10. thanks for the comments guys! available in Watson's almost 80 pesos per bar ung soap.


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Born in October 20, 1989 and a graduate of BSIE, JL Aquino started blogging in Blogspot back in 2007. He loves taking photos, trying out new things, eating and travelling. He has been to 6 countries and visited 28 out of 81 province in the Philippines. He's on Instagram too, follow him at @JayL_Aquino

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